You are not Me.

Some people are naturally born that way. But, who we were with, who we grew up with, what choice did we make, how did we live; don’t you think that can change what we might grow to be? Or we will keep being what we are born with?

In any case, don’t we want at least one person that can understand us? Who can understand why we chose this and that even their choices might be different. But, people are born different. They grew up in different way, being raised in different family, met different people, have different fears, experienced different things, and live different life. So, what we thought others might want, just because we wanted that, might be wrong. Nobody can understand us completely; because we are different.

-HELLO MONSTER END-

Whichever one you feed.

An old Native American chief told his grandson, “There are two wolves inside of us. One is evil — suffering from anger, envy, jealousy, arrogance, superiority. The other is good — having happiness, peace, love, hope, faith. These two wolves always fight inside of us.”

Then the boy asked his grandfather, “Which wolf wins?”

And the grandfather replied, “Whichever one you feed.”

HELLO MONSTER EPISODE 7

It hurts, a lot

Why do I keep thinking that people are slowly leaving me? Or maybe they’re really leaving me. It was like, slowly, they are moving away from me. Why am I so insecure about myself? Maybe it’s just me; am I too paranoid? Am I the one making people stepping away from me? Well, maybe that is it. I mean, I am way too clingy. And I took things for granted, like when people needed me, I wasn’t even there, wait, is there even anybody who needs me? Arghhh I need to get rid of this kind of mindset. Just live your life the happiest, just stop thinking too much, why can’t I do that? Why is it so hard for me? Let’s take a breath, let’s survive. I should be thankful of people around me; instead of chasing the ones who leave. Let’s change, let’s be better.

"People do not die from suicide; they die from sadness." - Anonymous 

And no, I’m not thinking of killing myself.

Maybe it is...

HOLIDAY GATHERING PART II – MY HOUSE!

 So, my schoolmates came here last weekend, even it wasn’t easy and I thought they were just joking around about coming so I wasn’t expecting much, but they came for real so thank you guys~~ well, at first our plan was a bit ruined and things didn’t go much on our way and we (me and afiqah of course) thought it would be boring, but in the end, it was a great day and we made a great memory.

The five guys arrived here at about 3 AM, yes in the morning and I went to fetch them at 7 (they slept at TBS and do their own stuff so it’s okay) and we went to Alamanda Putrajaya but well, the only thing we did there was waiting for Zahier, Syahir and Nioor went to the toilet. Yeah, it was fun, sure HAHA because Kamal has a veeeeeryyyy long list of interesting stories so time just went by.

Then we went to IOI Putrajaya; looking for something to do. The guys played some sort of 5D simulation which looks fun, I wanted to join them but it doesn’t seem appropriate so I just watched them having fun >.< it was a tiring day but they made it fun so we were enjoying ourselves so thank you again guys.

The simulation looks awesome thou.

And then we met teacher Kasdianah! OMG I miss her sooooo much. It’s the first time meeting her after she moved from our school and she’s still pretty as usual. Teacher has taught us a lot and loved us like her own children. She was not only a teacher but also a mother, and a friend to us. She’s special to all of us and meeting her was the greatest thing; thanks to Zahier and Syahir for arranging this meeting well teehee. And I hope we could do like a huge reunion one day, where all of us could meet again, and just live like the old days.

 The next day – my house. There wasn’t much to do so as usual, they just came to eat and play FIFA pfft but it wasn’t that bad I think, well, I hope so. They’ve made a lot of effort to come here so I hope It was worth it for you guys and come again one day :)

So, while the guys are busy with themselves, girls; selfie mode on ^^

Hot Selling. Rare and Limited. PM for info.

Oh yes, and after sending the rest of them to KTM Nilai, Syahir and Zahier need to go to Shah Alam fast, and there wasn’t enough time so we decided to send them there so Zahier drove from Nilai to Shah Alam and I drove back here. It was my first time driving quite far from my territory (cehh) and I’m not even driving my own car. But it was a perfect experience, and fun, and I get to have a looong chat with Amal so yeah, double the fun since I haven’t seen her much lately. How I miss the old days – when we were so careless but still having fun.

A BIG SHOUT OUT AND THANK YOU FOR AFIQAH SAZALI, AMALINA ALIAH, ABDUL ZAHIER, SYAHIR HAZIQ, KAMAL ARIFF, NOOR HAFIZIE, FARID AZWAN, NAJWA NABILA, SHAFIQAH AZLI, AND MUHD SOLLEHUDDIN.

Let’s forget today and go back to those times.

Here we are, to conquer PAHANG! Ngee~ So, last week, finally, we’ve met each other again. They’re like my precious diamonds; always there for me whenever I need them. Even only a few days passed, I’m missing them already. This time, I’m going to write in both English and Malay, baru feeling gitu. Yela, bahasa jiwa bangsa.

First stop, Temerloh! So, I took a bus for the first time – and alone. Dan terlajak sampai woodlands lepas tu kastam mintak passport and I was like “hah? Tapi saya nak pergi larkin”. It was tiring but yeay, new experience for me. 12 hours in bus but it doesn’t get me moody at all, because I was soooo excited for this trip. ps; Nadia tampal P dekat kereta walaupun P dah habis supaya kereta lain berhati hati.

Second day – Kuantan! We went to TC for a picnic and got a special service from kawan kawan Nadia kahkah. So, tak sempat makan kenyang sebab kena kacau dengan kera but we took awesome selfies (or maybe groufies idk) and we’re having fun~ it’s been a while but we’re enjoying it like the old days, like we’ve never been apart and that was special.

Wajah wajah bahagia sebelum kena kacau dengan kera.

Behind the scene.

One of my fav pic.Tak tahu la kenapa, Acepika comel sangat mungkin.

Candid yall - yeah, we made awesome photographs.

 After wandering around with no plan, then bowling it is. One of my worse games but it was fun so it’s okay, plus, Nadia lagi teruk so tak kesah la kan. And guess what, Acepika improved, like, a lot so tahniah HAHA tinggallah Nadia sengsorang yang tak lepas 30 pun.

Jalan - jalan tanpa hala tuju = Selfies.

 And for the first time (for me), we played pool. It was an awesome experienced, and fun. Thanks to Adae yang banyak mengajar, Nampak tak jari saya dah pro main pool kahkah okay sebenarnya tak pro pun. But seeing Adae and Aimang played, wow they’re amazing. Lets play when we meet again okay guys ^^

Go Jijiel go!

Saya ambil gambar mereka dengan cantik dan hebat. 

This is one of the piece that I like the most. Idk, just simply awesome maybe.

Aimang in sexy mood. WOW 

Searching for things to just kill our time – Karaoke~ I never knew that Aimang could sing pretty well, I mean, he always fool around so when he’s serious, it was kindda of weird but impressive as well kekeke. And as usual, Jijiel killed it, her voice was just woaaa. And others, semua malu malu taknak pegang mic lagi lagi si Adae tapi Nadia nyanyi mengalahkan orang yang pakai mic, suara dia je kuat kahkah.

#Akuwanitadenganairmata

Muka bahagia selfie tanpa saya hmm. Nadia Glow in the dark.

Night – Ikan Bakar bak hiang. It was my first time eating out at night with friends and one of them is a guy (sebab Aimang kan geng telekung biru). Just chatting around talking about the most random things, but it was fun, because we have each other. Paling lawak masa makcik sebelah tu pandang je budak budak ni borak tak ingat dunia. 

And muka muka bahagia dapat makan free.

And the next day – Gambang! This was not on our plan, but since there’s nothing much to do so lets play in the water! (muka saya burn T.T) and yes, my first time going down children’s slide sebab Nadia eksaited sangat nak main. But hanging around like this, I’m definitely going to miss this moment the most. It was like, shooting a movie of our own. And the best part is, there aren’t much people so it was just us, doing whatever we wanted. 

And last but not least, selfies sampai lebam.

Abam Abam hansom. PM kalau berminat.

Kacau Aimang selfie. Mana aci selfie sengsorang!

Enjoying much.

Our theme of the day - Brown X Blue. We didn't plan this, but well, orang kata kalau dah jodoh tak kemana. Eh

 Our last date – Nasi Kukus My Mama. Well, usually, people get quite when eating, but for us, it just gets louder. There are so much to talk about and nobody is good at parting, so, more selfies – because we just want to keep this moments forever.

#Teamgatalhidung

Just ignore my weird face; muka tahan ketawa sebab Aimang ambik time untuk feeling acah acah sakitnya tu disini.

Pahang – Johor – Selangor – Perlis – Terengganu  – Kelantan

Nadia Syamin – Azila Mostafa – Anis Nadzirah – Anis Syafiqa – Syed Aiman – Adam Bakri 

Distance will never keep us away.