balik ke atiliam

penad gila gila weh. btolak dari alor setar pkul 11 pagi. lewat kod. yela, sbelum btolak, nenek aku sempat cter pasal Al-Quran. bes dy cter. then, bru je btolak, pkul 11.30 da benty lunch an. haha. lawak kod. ayh aku mkn dlu. kteowg yg len ny mne la ade selera. bungkus je mkanan. aku un silent kan abes fon. tade bunyi lnsung, yela, nt tak pasal pasal kene amik lg an fon aku. aku un tak tw la kalu org text aku. aku tido je la dlm kete uw. slalu bunyi mcg fon yg kejut kan aku. lg pun, tade line la weh. pkul 2.30, aku un bgun. fon aku letak atas riba mse tido uw. yela, poket suar aku kecik gila. tak muat fon aku. tetibe aku tak jmpe an fon. gelabah la weh. aku cari bwh kusi, blakang adik aku, smue tade. aku da pening an. tak dpt nak cari ngan bersungguh sungguh. pas da okay cket, aku cari lg. tak jmpe jugak. dlm otak aku, takut je fon aku jatuh ke tangan mak aku an. then, ayh aku benty la dkt perak nak g smayang n lunch skaly. aku un cari la bwh seat mak aku. nseb bek jmpe. mak aku un tak prasan ade fon aku bwh uw. kalu dy bce mcg aku, pergh. lps lunch, ayh aku tido la. penad an drive. kteowg lalu highway. pening tak payah ckp la un. aku tahan je nak muntah. aku text soleh, shifa nan kamal. soleh berhati baik pulak an. dy suruh aku tido spye tak pening. wah. berhati perut jugak rpenye mamat ny. aku un ape lagi, tido la weh. mmpy byk gila. ntah pape je. lme kod aku tido. maghrib uw bru bgun. pegy smayang jap. then, aku rep la mcg yg msuk dlm fon aku uw. dlm kul 8, aku tido lagi. pergh, keje aku tido je an dlm kete. dkt pkul 10 bru bgun. aku tgk mcg ade 7 an. 5 mcg dr kamal je. dy rndu aku un. risau gila aku tak reply. sory tau weh. smpai atiliam adela dlm pkul 10.30 malam. woah. lme kod perjalanan. 11jam30minit. power seyh ayh aku buley drive lme gila. mak aku ade ckp jem lme jugak. aku tak sedar pape pun weh. teruk gila.


*atiliam merupakan nama kampung aku dkt terengganu. makcik aku yg bg nama ni. dipetik dari lgu sudirman, "ooo... balik kampung... ooo... balik kampung... hati riang". perkataan hati riang ditukar menjadi atiliam.

raya pertama

ohh hari raya yang mulia. post ni just nak publish gmba je. haha.



family tercinta <3

PMR

PMR PMR PMR

5 OKTOBER 2010

goodluck to all form 3 batch

do ur best okay

10 SEPTEMBER

KAMAL ARIFF MOHD KHALIB

happy birthday yaw baby!

hope you'll be happy always

may Allah bless you

stay smart okay(:

SURVEY SURVEY :D

HARIKU TANPA HANDPHONE

bilakah anda survive tanpa handphone?
rabu (1.20 pm) hingga khamis (7.50 pm)

berapakah mesej dlm inbox anda setelah membuka kembali fon?
17 mesej

apakah yg telah anda lakukan sepanjang ketiadaan fon?
buad latihan sejarah. dah katam 1 buku latihan uw

berapa set latihan yg telah anda berjaya buad?
sembilan set

adakah anda masih online?
must la. tak kne grounded tnet pun

siapa yg paling byk menghantar mesej sepanjang ketiadaan fon anda?
KAMAL ARIFF BIN MOHD KHALIB.

5 org yg paling anda rindu tak mesej adalah...
1) sharifah rosheeda
2) kamal ariff
3) sollehuddin
4) nadira basri
5) amalina aliah

siapa yg tak penah penah mesej anda tetibe je mesej?
liyana atikah azlan

siapa org terakhir anda mesej sebelum fon kene amik?
kamal ariff

siapa yg bru je nak mesej anda, tapi tetiba tak dpt sbb tade fon?
ahmad iskandar

anda rse sunyi tak mesej siapa?
1) sharifah rosheeda
2) kamal ariff
3) sollehuddin

apa yg paling anda rindu dlm mesej?
kutukan dari MOHD SOLLEHUDDIN

kesimpulannya..
aku tak buley idup tnpe fon! haha

rindu serindu rindunya

SHARIFAH ROSHEEDA BT SYED ABDUL HAMID! ble kte nak jmpe lagi? rndu sgt sgt dkt u. rye nt u dtg umah i taw. nak jmpe. dah la skrg i tak dpt fon. tak dpt nak mcg u. eh, dompet ketas yg adik u buad n tertinggal dkt umah i tu, i smpan lg taw. duit dlm tu pun i tak sentuh. tp i lpe je nak bwk. ckp sory taw dkt adik u. kalu u blek perak, dkt jela kte ea. i dkt kedah je. then, kalu u blek johor, snggah la umah i. nt i buad kuey rye spesel utk u. taw taw. i nak tgk tgn u yunk. nak melawat u. nape la susa sgt. haiz. u mcg la i selalu. wlupun i tak dpt fon, n i tak reply mcg u, tape. mcg je taw. nt da byk sgt mcg dkt fon i, mak i bg kod i gne fon. nape la kte unline tak saing ea yunk. ny je cre nak contact u. hm, rndu u sgt sgt. SELAMAT HARI RAYA yunk! jgn mkn byk byk okay. nt buncet i tak ngaku kwn. kahkahkah. tade la. gurau saja. tak kre u buncet ke tak, u ttp sahabat i yg TERHEBAD okay. take care yunk. syg u. nak jmpe u sgt sgt. RINDU~

hari yang HEBAD kod

petang tadi, aku gerak pegy KLCC. dekat je kod dr hotel. aku siap lmbt. so, tak sempat nak pakai high-cut kesayangan aku uw. terpaksa la aku pakai high-heel yg tak penah penah aku pakai. jalan jauh la jugak weh. smbil jalan uw, aku texting je. tak rse la penad berjalan uw kan. smpai KLCC, nak pegy berbuka dkt piza hut. pnye la ramai gila org. beratur jela un. nseb bek mseh ade tmpat utk kteowg. mse nga tnggu tmpat, aku un pegy la survey kedai alat tulis ny. aku jmpe keychain yg ade nme uw. then dy tles mksd nme. tetibe aku un jmpe nme akmal. aku bce je la. aku belek belek, hah, jmpe nme kamal pulak. mksd nme dua org bdak ny,

Amanah
Kacak
peMaaf
Artistik
Luas pandangan

Kacak
Ambil berat
Matang
Aktif
Lucu

haha. lawak un. dua - dua kacak? ade ke ptut. akmal! cepat pegy sepit idung kw uw. dah kembang semacam je aku tgk. then, aku un jmpe mksd nme aku.

terAtur
berNasib baik
Introvert
Sopan santun

tak buley belah an? nak tipu tak agak agak seyh bnde ny. sejak ble ntah aku bersopan santun. teratur? haha. lagi la aku tak buley trime. lepas uw aku un g makan piza. berbuka la weh. ayh aku amek set spesel ny. ade meatball. adik aku ade amik bnde cheezy. aku un nak test cket. aku celup la meatball aku. rse dy? penuh cheese la weh. nak termuntah aku. sakit perut gila gila la un. then, kteowg jalan nak pegy msjid. smpai je msjid, adik aku da sakit perut an. hajat perlu dibuang. aku un sme jugak. dyowg da gerak nak blek bilik. aku un ikut dari blakang. yela, sape tw nt dyowg kene kacau ke an. sape nak jd hero kalu tade aku. dyowg nmpak je aku ikut dari blakang, terus lari un. pergh. aku un ape lagi, kejar la weh. aku lari pakai high-heel uw. susa dy tak payah ckp la un. lari lari aku kejar dyowg. tyme nak lintas jalan, nseb bek adik aku uw tnggu aku then lintas sama sama. then dyowg smbung lari lagi un. smpai je dalam lif hotel, aku un bukak kasut. pergh. tumit aku sakit tak payah ckp la un. kaki aku dah merah. aku jalan msuk bilik pegang je an kasut uw. sakit gila la weh. mmg cabaran pakai high-heel buad pertama kali. haiz.


high-cut aku!

ntahapahapantah~

penad penad penad. lima jam an dlm kete td. penad gila wlupun bkn aku yg drive. aku un cdey weh tak dpt nak stdy. nseb bek la ade kamal yg nak tlg aku jugak. men kuiz sejarah. oh yeah! thanks yaw kamal. kalu tade kau, aku da tak stdy kod. then, soleh text aku. hah. mcg ngarut ngarut je. kau an soleh, mengarut je keje. da abis kuiz nan kamal, aku un smpai la dkt hotel mne ntah. besar la weh. aku jakun gila gila. tgk tingkap luar, da nmpak KLCC. pergh. aku nak g jalan jalan tp penad sgt la. then, soleh text aku an. ngutuk aku je keje mamat uw. kalu idup aku tak tenang, dy pnye pasal la. aku kutuk dy cket dkt blog ny, tak puas aty an. dy nak suruh aku kutuk byk byk. aku un tak tw nak kutuk ape. aku an budak bek. haha. then, dy bg hint dkt aku kalu nak kutuk ny, CAPANGZEE. haha. bgus betul kw ny ea. aku nak pegy melawat shifa. rndu dy sgt sgt. tp rumah dy jauh jugak la weh. takan nak suruh dy dtg cny an. cian la dy. tape la. rye nt aku try la dtg umah dy. harap harap sgt buley.


yeah. buku teks sejarah!

GCB~

bulan puasa ny an. mmg la lapar gila. so, aku nak cter pasal makanan la. biar korg smue telan air liur. haha. semalam an, aku bbke dkt otel. blek je dr bbke, mak aku bru egt kteowg tade lauk utk sahur. then, adik aku bg idea yang bernas gila la. pegy mkn dkt mc donald then beli sahur. gila la, sahur mkn beger an. aku un slalu mkn beef beger je. ade roti nan daging. ckup la un. tp adik aku, semangat la weh. dy amek Grilled Chicken Burger an. yang mane? alaa, iklan dlm tv uw la. pergh. sos bbq dy, lazat gila. nan daging double. sedap gila gila la weh. aku pun da jd gila ny. tapi yang aku tak tahan, sahur un mkn cm uw. haiz. ny ha, aku ltk gmbar GCB uw. biar air liur korg kuar skaly. haahha~

texting is addicting

for me, yah texting is addicting. smalam un aku tido adela dlm pkul 1 pagi. yela, dah berbulan kod aku tak texting soleh. rndu la un. tyme aku nga texting soleh uw, aku text la kamal skaly. bru je pkul 12, kamal da tido an. haha. cpt gila. pas uw aku tertido la dlm pkul 1 uw. soleh ny tak rety tido la kod. dr dlu lg. then bru je aku bgun sahur, aku terus reply mcg dy. dy un reply blek nan pantas la weh. pergh, mmg tak tido mamat ny. pas sahur uw kteowg un texting jela. tp pas uw nset dy tade bet. haha. pdn mke kw, sape suruh tak bwk charger balek kmpung. then, aku tertido an. bgun je pagi uw, tade la pg sgt. dlm pkul 11 kod. haha. ade 4 mcg dr org berlainan un. aku un rply la smue. pika, kamal, amalina, nadira. wah. smue rndu dkt aku ke ny. haha. aku tido kejap da belambak mcg un. belum lg aku off nset mcm dlu. lg bertimbun. nset lme aku un da rusak. yela, aku ny pemalas kalu nak kne delete mcg. inbox aku da 8000 mcg an. tetiba, mak aku nak amik nset sbb aku madah mcg je, tak blaja. aku un kelam kabut la. delete mcg. bahayee mcg mcg aku uw. bru je smpai mcg ke-40, haha. stuck la weh. tak idup idup nset aku uw. so, skrg aku gne nset yg mmg da season gila. bru 30 mcg dah nak kne delete an. memory dah penuh. tension aku. nak beli nset bru, mak aku kata membazir. tp aku rse, asal buley mcg uw jadi la. tak payah nak beli nset cnggih cnggih. aku bkn gne sgt function len dlm nset un. aku just gila texting je. aku un penah mcg 5 org skaly gus. kalu korg agak agak aku reply lmbt uw, mkne aku nga text nan blambak org la. bersabar ye peminatku. haha. kadang kadang adik aku un tension. nset aku tak penah benti berbunyi an. tapi nak buad cmne. haha. hobi.


*fon idaman aku la weh. haha

nubhan oh nubhan

aku tau sape sape je bace entry terus taknak bace ape yg aku bebel ny an. tape la. aku pun tles utk aku bce je. haha. so, tadi aku bru bce surat khabar an. yela, aku bru je turun dr bilek, mak aku dah mula bersuara "Nubhan dlm surat khabar ni." aku yg excited tahap dewa dewi ny, "hah? mane mane?" mak aku pun suruh la cari sendiri. aku bukak la surat khabar uw dgn ganas dan tak sabar sgt sgt an. mak aku un geleng je la. okay, informasi ttg nubhan, album dy pas rye nt bru kuar kod. tajuk; Langkah Nubhan. then, rjen rjen la korg dgr lgu bru nubhan yg mmg bes gila la; Aku Atau Dia. tu je kod aku nak share.

shopping sakan_

baik la pnye entry. hari ny, aku bru je balik shopping. dkt angsana je yaw. bajet mak aku kan seratus je. nak beli bju rye aku je. mklumlah, aku ny ketandusan baju kurung an. so, cari pnye cari. tawaf satu mall uw, terjumpa pulak.. jeng jeng jeng.. KAK MIRA SAAT! OMG. akak afiq amani uw. aku pnye la rndu dkt mamat blagak uw. aku un pusing pusing la cari kalu kalu jmpe ke si afiq ny. nak tw jugak dy da tnggy ke tak. skaly, hampanya hatiku. tade la weh. tyme uw aku nga texting nan ainul. pergh, dy pun sopeng dkt angsana un. hari reunion ke ny? haha. aku cter la pasal aku jmpe kak mira un. ainul pun ckp afiq bru je blah dr kedai buku badan. aku lmbat un. bru egt nak jmpe dy dgn harapan menggunung uw. tp apakan daya. haha. dah aku beli baju sepasang plus tudung, aku un pegy la badan. jmpe ainul! sungguh aku merinduimu. wah. kteowg un borak borak la un smbel beli bku. aku yg nga texting kamal pun smpai terlupa kan. sory kamal late reply mcg kau. aku un borong la 8 buku latihan. power an. rjen la konon nye aku ny. ntah buad ke tak. da uw pegy kdai mne ntah. beli baju lagi. last last, dkt 200 an beli barang aku. haha. nseb baik bkn duit aku. thanks mama n ayah! blanje jalan jalan rye ary ni. seronok sgt sgt.

smile(:

Smile, though your heart is aching,Smile, even though it's breaking.When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by.If you smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll see the sun come shining through
For you.Light up your face with gladness,Hide every trace of sadness.Although a tear may be ever so near,That's the time you must keep on trying,Smile, what's the use of crying?You'll find that life is still worthwhile, If you just smile.

Orkid

Aku dipusara menanti haruman kasturi
dimalam gelita..
ya.. itulah purnama
Nikmatnya bayu lembut seakan belati
menghiris lembut
namun melukakan
bukan jasad dan badan
tapi hati dan perasaan
Intaiku dari ruang lena kerana
ku sedar tiada setanding
orkid dan teratai
pergilah dikau seru namanya
Seribu bintang tak mungkin tenang
tanpa satu purnama
ya.. bungaku
tiba masa ku pergi
muncullah dan jenguklah
ke jendela mimpiku

nukilan : solleh

It is you_

Friend is one of the most important people in our life. Friend is the closest person to us besides our family. We spend most of our time in school, with friends. When we are down, a good friend will help us through it. So, I would like to write this note, special for who I called a friend, good friend.

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We had met each other but either of us doesn’t think that we would be close friends. It was started with a fight. I was the bad guy and I made you cried. I knew that and I’m sorry. I know back there, we don’t hate each other but why are we kept on fighting. It wasn’t really a fight; it was just an emotion fight. Then on my birthday, you were the only person who gave a present, exactly on that day. Then we got closer to each other. It wasn’t about the present but it was about how thoughtful you were to find me a perfect present, a pink one. I told you before that I used to love pink but not anymore. But you do love pink. So, you gave me this pink thingy and it was beautiful. Do you still remember on the day we were about to have this exam? You helped me a lot on my studies. You were smarter than me but you were very humble. When you called me that day and said that you had to leave the school and me, I couldn’t believe my ears. You came back late to hostel but me and others still want to make it the best day for you. Guess it doesn’t turned out pretty well. When you’re gone from here, I know something is missing. I felt so lonely. There’s nobody to help me through my days. I knew I had lots of friends that could cheer me but you were different, you’re special. Then I made a decision to move from that school too. We get closer then with the use of technology, our phone. At the night before I had my PMR Trial, you gave me all the tips on how to success and you gave me the spirit. You were more nervous than me, I could see that. You’re true friend. Although you were miles away from me, I knew you’re always there for me. You were always in my heart. I miss you dearly.

_scha_

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The day you sucked the red-inked pen never vanished from my mind. The ink went all over your mouth as if your mouth were badly injured, full of blood. It was a memory that reminded me of you. I sat next to you and you treated me pretty well. We get closer then. After our UPSR result, you called me and asked me to go to SMKBT2. I can’t believe that we were in the same class. You were the class monitor and I was you assistant. We worked together. We were like children back there, we football using a drinking can, we chased each other like little kid and the most unforgettable moment was when I defeated you in the game of chess. We sang together the song from the show called ‘tom tom bak’. It was a lot of fun. Then you moved to English College. It was so deserted without you. After I moved back here, you always send me gifts. You were so kind. When you spent all of your savings for me, I was felt so guilty when you did that. I never knew I was that important to you. I want you to know that you were that important to me as well.

A_A Poyo

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On the mid-year break, you accidentally told me your biggest secret. Then, we started to message a lot. You trusted me. We spent most of our time, messaging each other during the whole school break. But then, it seems like our friendship didn’t last too long. We haven’t contact each other for few weeks. Then I don’t know how it happen, we got close again. You helped me through all my bad days, I told you all the things happened to me and you done that to me as well. When I was bored, sad or even happy, I knew I could count on you to be my diary because you would always listen to my stories. There is one night; you told me that you would stay up late to message me and accompanied me when I still can’t sleep before my mom took back my phone. You were very sporting and kind. You were a great person. You sacrificed your time for me, you understand me, and the most important thing, you didn’t hate me for being an annoying person. Although we’re only close with each other in a phone, but I knew it was enough and it’s better to always be like that. I do hope our friendship will last forever.

Yaw baby!

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I never thought you were the one who loved me so much. Every night, we shared stories together before we went to bed. You told me about your days and I told you about mine. When I had a stomachache after eating too much, you would always helped my by rubbing and kneading my body to reduce my pain and stiffness. When I was suffering from one itchy problem, you were the one who rubbed the lotion on me. You still treated me in a great way although I was very annoying. You were like my older sister. You take care of me on my time there. I remember this one day, I told you that I would have to move from SMKBT2 if my examination result were bad and you worked as hard as you could to teach me about the subject that I didn’t able to score A. You even stayed up late to help me on my studies but guess I didn’t put much effort on it. My result was bad. I didn’t go back to hostel for a week and it was one week of school holiday after that. My parents were discussing about moving me back home, I was afraid to tell you that. Then three days before going back to hostel, I sent you a text message and told you that I would be leaving SMKBT2 soon. Then, you called me, crying. You said that you had been waiting for me for the past few weeks but I just went back to hostel then leave again. You were crying when you told me that. I was crying also. When I went back for my last night there, you treated me so special. Thank you for making that day a special day for me and I could never forget it.

Miss F

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Our school had a fire drill. I had nowhere to go and I had no idea where am I heading to. Then I met you. It was a sudden. We talked much about each other. It seems pretty short time for us to be closer friends. You suddenly told me your secret. We started messaging each other, in English. There’re so many topics we discuss about and it was so much fun, sharing all our thoughts and secrets. We had a fight most of the time but then doesn’t affect a bit. Sometime, you were mad at me and I knew I was being too ego. I’m sorry for blaming you on our fights. There is one day, the day before our PMR trial, we messaged a lot. I think we were messaging for the whole day. We played quizzes about History as we had our History test on the next day. I got lots of new useful knowledge cause of you. And guess what, I got an A in that test for the first time. I owed you big time.

City

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When we were ten, we used to play together. We cycled all around and shared stories together. We had so much fun. But then, I moved. We were not close to each other anymore. Until we were twelve, we were in the same class. We started to be close again. When we were thirteen, we went to different school but it didn’t break us up. We sent letters to each other and still sharing our stories. You told me about your school and I told you about mine. One day, I had to move back from my school because of my exam result that was totally terrible. I went to this school, the same school with you. We became closer again. I happen to know your little secret and that kept us closer to each other. You were so kind. You did sacrifice on your own life. I know you’re not happy about it. All you were thinking was my happiness. There was one time; you broke your own heart because you want me to be happy. But I didn’t understand you, I never did. I judged you in a wrong way. I’m sorry. You tried to understand me and you did. You were so purely nice. You always asked for forgiveness although you had never done even a single mistake to me. I’m glad to get a chance to know you.

Kakak_

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It was a normal day as usual. I don’t know how, we were actually talking with each other, sharing our stories. We got closer day by day. On the award-giving rehearsal day, we sat near to each other. You told me a lot about yourself. I started to know you better. After end of primary school, you called me. You asked me to go to SMKBT2 too. But in February, you got an offer to go to MRSM. Your mom wanted you to go there badly. Guess we had no chance to be friend any longer. But I was wrong. When we were in form one, you often called me. You called me using public phone there and I knew you had lost lots of money just to talk with me. When it was school holidays, you always messaged me. We talked so much about each other. But then, I had no idea how it happen, we kind of lost contact with each other. We had not communicated for a long time I think. But just after your birthday this year, you messaged me. You always did messaged me when it was you birthday. I never did forget it. After that, we started to contact each other again. We became closer than ever. You had change, a lot I think. But what I like is that you became more sporting. Our conversation had been very wonderful as there were so many things to talk about. You were the one who get me off my boring days. It was so fun to befriend with you.

hud

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You were the only person who gave me greeting card last year. You said you wanted to be my friend. I’m totally fine with it and I want to be your friend also. But guess I’m too shy to reply your card. No hard feeling okay. After that, I sat near to you. We started chit-chatting. It was a lot of fun. Until one day, after our second-test, I got bad result and you got a good result. I was very disappointed. But you seem to be arrogant. I knew you didn’t mean to be like that. It just happens or maybe it was just my feeling. I did something terrible after that. I’m regretting for doing that. I told you what I had done after we our relationship got better. If I were you, I don’t think I can forgive myself but you did. You said it wasn’t big deal. You didn’t mad at me. I thought we would never be friend again after the incident but your kindness did make us a great friend. You always try to give the best for me, thank you.

DiDi

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Before I had any friend here, you came to me, be my friend. When I was lonely, you did accompany me. You were the one who trust me and I trust you. This one day, I had a very difficult time of my life. You were ready, to hear my story. I was crying. You cheered me up. I knew you had your own life and why should you still cared about me? I didn’t even can understand you. But starting from that time, I knew how to understand you. You told me a huge secret that you never told anybody. I still keeping it and nobody ever knew about it, until now. We became best friends but nobody can even realize that. We became closer although even us, ourselves didn’t notice it. We just like normal friend but I knew that you were the one, my friend. You were the person who helped me through my bad days, and the one who gave me inspiration.

Wawar**

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This is my story, story about my friends that had made my life better day by day. They were the one who kept me standing here, giving me the spirit. I don’t know how to repay all the good things you guys had done for me. I love you guys so much. Thank you for being here. Thank you for being my friend. And thank you for just being you.

MEMBER or FRIEND?

Woah. Nice entry I think. Act, I have lots of members though some said that I'm arrogant. Hey, I'm nice what. I thought I was way to kecoh. Seriously, I LOVE to laugh out loud. Haha. Poor nadira, amalina and alissa. Their lives become miserable because of me. Truly, I can't start a conversation when I don't know the person (teringat pulak mse mule2 msuk smkkp). Hey. I can't just go to you and said 'weh, aku tak sombong, jom la kwn nan aku'. Haha. They'll think I'm crazy for sure la. Some did said that I'm show off. Am I? Maybe a little bit since the trial but I'm anis la weh. Okay back to the topic. What's the different between member and friend? It's easy to find members but hard to find friends. Is there any different? Of course la. Members just stick with you when your mood is okay, when you're kind. I want a friend. Who will still be with me even when I'm down or sad. The one love me the way I am. Who are you? My friend or just member? Who are my friends? Hey. Just ask yourself okay. To all my friends, thank you because you're still here for me, listening to all my problems. Giving me advice and make me trust myself again. Thanks for supporting me when I was down. You are a very very good listener and I love you so much. To my members, thank you for just being a member. After reading this, just think whether you are my member or friend.

raya or pmr?

woah. pening pening ble piker nak rye la weh.. tp pmr tak smpai sebulan lg. blaja pun tak rjen. madah ngadap tnet je. cm ne la nak skor. nseb bek trial tak terok sgt. tp terok jugak la. tp nak rye. oh tidakk! pmr kuh. takan nak abaikan kod, bwk bku smbel rye? haha. tension tension.

Butterfly Fly Away

You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We've been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away

* lagu ny ttg seorang ayah. iloveyou daddy(:

OMG(:

nubhan nubhan(: ilovehimla..

Emotionless

It was a normal Sunday morning when you decided to drive me to the beach. I get into the car as soon as you asked me to. We left mom alone in our moderate house. Mom was pregnant and you never bother about her. I want to speak up for mom but I was too afraid of you. What can a six year old boy possibly do? When we reach the beach, you went away and left me there to play all by myself. I saw you with a random girl but you didn’t saw me standing next to you. You even gave me 20 cent. Maybe you thought I was a beggar. You can’t even recognize your own son. We went home late at night. Mom was screaming when we get home. She’s going to give birth. I was very excited but you didn’t care at all. You went straight to the bedroom. I called the 911. Ambulance came right away and mom gave birth to my sister in the ambulance. You weren’t there. I hate you.

I accompany mom for the whole night. You came that morning and you took away my new-born sister and disappear. I had no idea where you brought her to but you never came back. I never told mom what had happened. Mom thought the she was miscarriage. Four years later, you came back. You bought along my sister. Mom was surprised to see a four-year-old child with you. I thought you had found the right path and decided to regret for your old blindness. I could forgive you. Then I told mom about my sister. You didn’t want to take care of her. I knew that for sure. She was blind and she only has one leg. I still remember that she was perfect on the day she was born. You’d destroyed her for your own satisfaction.

You just absconded again. You took away all my saving which I put on a lot of effort on that to defray our family. I had been working in a workshop. I was very noble with all the engines stuff as you used to teach me about it since I was five. I still remember that day. You were the most amazing person I’ve seen. You changed in a blink of an eye. I was suffering cause of your wickedness. You left sister with me. I’m only ten and I have to foster the family. Where are you responsibility? But I don’t mind. I knew I’m big enough to deal with this. I used to live in this situation. I never thought this life is unfair because I know you don’t hate us. You’re just selfish.

It’s been a long time. I was fourteen now. I miss you, I really do. Sometimes, I do wonder whether you still remember me and sister and even mom. I knew you had a better life out there. You must already have a better family and that’s why you left us. I saw you just now with that beautiful lady. You walked in front of me with her. You
didn’t even noticed me perhaps you didn’t know I’m your son. But I forgave you already. I just want you to know that even you hurt me so bad, I never was vengeful. I’m writing this to let you know that I’m still alive. I miss you. Hey dad.


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new blog(:

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