I wonder
what this feeling is; regretful? Over excited? Scared? To be honest, I never
really understand my own feelings. But when I’m happy, I never faked it. But at
the same time, when I’m happy, I stop thinking. It was like, everything just
came out and I didn’t even realize what I was doing. When I got my brain
straight, just then I realize; what was I doing? It’s shameful; to the point
that sometimes I want to stop seeing people but no matter how hard I try,
things never change. I wonder; is it me who doesn’t want to change or I never
really learn from mistakes?
The
reason my teen years are like a rushing wind is because I don’t yet know the
answers; what it is I really want, who really loves me, who is it that I love.
The time of life is when I tumble here and there, searching for the answers.
There
are times when everyone wants to die. Even if you wanted to die, the fact that
you endured it was great.
Don’t compete with your past but rather
expect great things from your future and love your present self.
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