I’m Gonna Call You Keith

So, I have just finished this amazing movie ‘Keith’. Well, I finished it at 4 AM last night so I wasn’t able to write after the movie ended as I needed my sleep. So, what about this movie? Please don’t read this if you haven’t watch the movie, I’m thinking of writing some spoilers here. And trust me, the movie is beyond amazing.

So, why Keith? Actually, the character Keith reminds me a lot of you. Keith was like so mysterious, full of secrets, never really let anyone pierce into him or his life, full of theories and ideas, pretends that he was dumb but actually a genius, and didn’t truly show his emotion. Just like you. Or maybe the old you, if you have changed, or grew up.

He played roleplay randomly, just like you used to. He just did everything and anything that crossed his mind, and just had fun. He would give this amazing quotes and theories, well, you know what you used to be like, right. You would always have theories of everything, and was like the most genius person I’ve ever met. I don’t know if you really was observing everything or just simply talking garbage (I wanted to write sh*t but it won’t be appropriate). Then you would give amazing advises and quotes, and I would just be wowed by it. How can a twelve years old boy (until fifteen I think) be so matured and cool and amazing? Keith said that he’d just want to drive his yellow truck that he loved so much and doesn’t think much of his future. Well, you always wanted to be a postman because you don’t like to work in cramped office, you wanted to work outdoors with the breeze, while riding your motorcycle. Well, at least you have a dream of your own, no matter how bizarre and nonsense it is, you just don't care, or don't want to care. Keith and you always had everything planned that only you guys know. Nobody can really figure out what's going on inside the head of yours. And then you would just do it, as you pleased. You guys don't really give presents, instead, you guys gave meanings and feelings. Keith gave a part of his truck engine for Natalie to just assemble and figure it out herself. While you, you gave things like sim card, bread clip, and poem. I'm sure there's some more but I just couldn't really remember. So if you asked me what I wanted for birthday or anything, I wouldn't ask for materials but I would ask for meanings and feelings. Because that is you. Both of you have so many secrets, so mysterious like nobody should know what’s deep inside you guys. Keith’s big secret was that he had cancer and was dying. I don’t know what your big secret is but at least you don’t have cancer, I hope.

I had so many things to write yesterday but I can’t think of anything today that I feel like this writing is really bad. But one thing I really want you to know, that you’re amazing and I’m glad I met you. I’ve been idolized you ever since I knew you, until now actually. You’re just, different. No matter how many people I’ve met in my life, nobody can be compared to you. You’re simply just amazing. Trust me, you’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met and I hope you still have those in you. Well, you still give me good advises, you still have those theories, and you still talks garbage so yeah, probably you’re still the same.

"We're here in a yellow truck a road ahead of us and nothing but opportunities" - Keith

Just Another Scribble

Hey. You know, I’ve been thinking of something that I really want to do. At first, I wasn’t really sure of the road I’m taking, like, do I really want to be in medical field? Do I really like science? Do I really want to work in a hospital? Well, actually, yeah, that was like my ultimate dream since I was like eleven. But I have this fear of bloods and wounds so I prefer not to be a doctor though I used to think that I’m good enough and capable of being a doctor. So here I am, choosing a career path of a pharmacist. It wasn’t so bad, well, it’s really exhausting and sometimes I feel like this is too tough for me but overall, I kindda enjoying it.

But what do I really enjoy? Writing. I don’t know since when but I really enjoy writing. So that’s why this blog never really dies. I haven’t updated much since I don’t really have the time lately. But I really enjoy writing. Not the fiction type or novel stuffs, just writing. I like the sound that it makes everytime I clicked on the keyboard. I like to just imagine things and sometimes (well most of the time actually) I talked to myself pretending like I’m talking to someone. And I like it when I write whatever that comes to my mind. Like, just scribbling around my feelings.

Should I start on a travel blog? Since I travel a lot. But I’m not really the type of person who writes on something solid. I just like to write what’s on my mind at the time and let it flow, like now. So I don’t know if this is ever going to be a career though my father will give his full support if I wanted to be a writer. But I just don’t have the courage and confidence in myself. I don’t think I’m good enough. So I’m just gonna write as a hobby. Since I’m in movie mode this semester break (I’ve been watching like, four movies each day), I might want to write more.

Ps; just finished watching a movie about a writer, so yeah, that triggered me to write. I really want to write on depression next but the feeling hasn’t come yet (finished watching The Art of Getting By, It’s Kindda Funny Story, and According to Greta which all are about depression and they’re really good)

So, I’m either be writing about it or not.

I don’t know if anybody ever read this, but tbh, I read it. I love my writing. And I really want to remember this a few years later. So, gonna let it jeojang in here.