We
all started at different points, in a different race, at a different pace. If we
keep comparing ourselves to others, then we’ll never win the race. The one we should
beat is ourselves.
I
remember when I got my SPM result, I got 8A1B. To some people, it’s really
great. But to me, it was disappointing. I could’ve done better, I could’ve
gotten straight As, I know I’m able to do that. Because that was my race. It’s
not that I’m not grateful, but because I felt like I didn’t do my best, because
I felt like I’ve lost the race. As I was always on top of the class, I’ve
always studied hard, and it felt easier to keep myself floating; to be
consistent. Once I’ve stumbled, it got harder to get back up. Like during my
foundation and degree years, I kept on falling, and couldn’t find my way to get
up. I’ve drown. I lost the race of my own.
You
were different. You didn’t do well in school and SPM. So you took pra-diploma,
and you did so well that you managed to continue your study in Pharmacy. You said
you never knew you could do well in studying, but you did. Just look at you
know. 15 years back, you probably wouldn’t guess you’ll get this far. You
started at different pace, a little late, but still manage to do fine. I’m sure
you’re proud of yourselves. You said you didn’t want to be the slave of money,
to work for money. Instead, you wanted to be free of whatever you’re doing.
Then
there’s him. He who did so well during primary school. He was the top student,
the model student, the president of the student body. He was amazing. I don’t know
what happened to him, but he kindda lost himself during secondary school. While
I was at my prime, he was falling. But since he was twelve, he has always had
this dream, to be free. He hated small confined suffocating office. He always
wanted to be able to utilize his creativity and imagination freely, to be free
doing what he likes. To be limitless. And now, he still hasn’t change. He still
has the same dream, still pursuing, still passionate.
I?
Where did I went? Where did my dreams went? I used to be ambitious and
confident. I used to know exactly what I wanted. But now I’m confused. But seeing
you two, made me think, I should start again. I should get myself back up. It’s
never too late, whether you’re 24 or 32, you can always find yourself again. I think
I know where I’m going to. Having a goal, made it easier, you know. So now, I just
have to go through the right path. I’m going to finish my race.
Thank
you, both of you.
