Tho someday your name might become strange

...my heart will always remember our memories together.

That cherished moment when everyone was online at the same time. The six of us, even we’re far apart, there is one thing that kept us strong together; ourselves. Exactly at 22:06, all of us send our text simultaneously. Thou it was just a simple “hahaha” written, we were also laughing while typing it. We were sincere; we were having fun; we were happy. That is how much we’re important to each other; we made each other smile even for the smallest thing.

The friends at my side are just like stars which shine on me who’s in darkness. I will also be the star who will shine on someone; forever there.

Present. In English, it has two meanings: a gift, and also the current moment. It may be that the most precious gift to us is the present, the time in front of us now. True, we may always be bickering with each other, but we leaned on each other and were happy together.

Help me, I'm Trapped.

 

Have you ever had this feeling; it was like you fell for someone for some time but then you want to forget that person so you let yourself fell for someone else but when you did, you suddenly fell for the first person again (okay this sound so Keling) but I don’t really know how to explain it. I don’t even know what this feeling is; do I like that person? Do I adore that person? Am I falling in love? Seriously, I never really understand my own feeling. Even if you ask me; why do you like Infinite so much? There are lots of answers I can think of; they’re handsome, their voices are awesome, they way they treat their fans, their hardship, their humbleness, their dumbness, their fashion sense, their attitude; everything about them I like, but the most perfect answer for that question is ‘I don’t know’.

It just happened; I just happen to like that person without even knowing why. People said it’s impossible to like someone when you barely know that person. Yeah, it’s true. So that’s why I don’t know the reason for liking that person; I don’t even know whether I really like that person or not.

When your heart doesn’t tell you the truth, the pain will tell you the answer.

 

Because I Miss You Again.

Just spending and wasting some time with them before we went to our own path T_T it's hard to believe that Asasi is done. So here we are, the Kelings; to conquer the world~!

 

It was quite scary at first since it was raining and the wiper doesn't wipe well (?) but thanks to the awesome driver that we manage to come home safely kekeke. Thanks adam~!

 

Selfie is a must! kekeke

 At the bowling alley. Great game kekeke, seriously, Adam was awesome! Turkey~ ahhh and Nadia was awesome too HAHA (sarcastically)

 

 Aimang struggling to fit in the picture HAHA.

 

 The horse smelled like Aimang HAHA. Thou there are still so many things I want to do with you guys, but still, this was one of the best moment. Time went by so fast T_T

 

Ehem? so sweet HAHA

 

They are the best people and we fell in love with the horse! From  Pahang to Terengganu to Perlis to Johor to Kelantan to Selangor . Even the distance may keep us apart, but we can always be together bacause we are The Kelings! There are strings that are never meant to be broken and that is friendship ^^

 

Thou it was just simple; with KFC and bowling but being with you guys made it special. Thank you for coming into my life and bringing the joy:)

 

I'm just too sleepy to write more

Let me hear your breath.

 

It’s been a while, where are you? I tried holding on to you, reaching you but you seemed to have forgotten me. I was scrolling my blog; reading the older posts and found that I wrote quite a lot about you.  I smiled; because of our cherished memories back then but it disappeared; you disappeared. Is this the end? Then, can I remove you picture from this blog? Will you be hurt? Will you notice it? Will you be sad like the last time I did remove your picture? Will you comeback if I delete it? Will you come back if I start forgetting you? Will you be reading this post? Do you still read my blog? Do you still remember my blog? Do you still remember me? Please answer me. Please let me at least hear your breath.

Please come and never go.

 Have you ever feel like there’s something in your heart; just looking for a way to come out? I don’t know what is this feeling; but it hurts; a lot. Maybe, just maybe, I was enjoying the present to much that I forgot, it won’t last forever. People said that loneliness hurts; but little did they know that what hurts is actually happiness. We were too happy that when it’s gone; it feels empty. Sometimes, we were too happy to realize someone is hurting.

Promise me you won’t leave me, promise me we’ll still like this forever, promise me to keep this promise; we often neglect the reality that we only hear what we want to hear. The further we go, the more hurtful it became.

Your drama has a long way to go before it’s over. So don’t force yourself to go quickly. If you go slowly, you can see a lot more, in more detail, than the people who go quickly. If you ask me who would grow more between those two, I’d say it’s the one who goes slowly and sees a lot.

Do you know what it means to become an adult? It means there’s less and less to smile about. So we’ll have to smile even more, even if we have to force it.

They say that there are two types of happiness. One is a happiness that you realize after the fact and the other is a happiness you feel in the moment. That happiness you feel in the moment is so precious that they say that the memories of this kind of happiness can stay with you and enlighten your life. Maybe we’ll go on remembering this moment today, like that kind of happiness… that we can remember for the rest of our lives, the moment when we shined.

I was holding on to my trembling heart.

I wonder what this feeling is; regretful? Over excited? Scared? To be honest, I never really understand my own feelings. But when I’m happy, I never faked it. But at the same time, when I’m happy, I stop thinking. It was like, everything just came out and I didn’t even realize what I was doing. When I got my brain straight, just then I realize; what was I doing? It’s shameful; to the point that sometimes I want to stop seeing people but no matter how hard I try, things never change. I wonder; is it me who doesn’t want to change or I never really learn from mistakes?

The reason my teen years are like a rushing wind is because I don’t yet know the answers; what it is I really want, who really loves me, who is it that I love. The time of life is when I tumble here and there, searching for the answers.

There are times when everyone wants to die. Even if you wanted to die, the fact that you endured it was great.

Don’t compete with your past but rather expect great things from your future and love your present self.


-REPLY 1997 END-

Yes, I’ll listen, although it’ll be all lies

Lies.

 It sometimes bothers me. It just happened and without realizing, we're lying. It was like, when we’re trying to end a conversation, but then we’re still on a conversation with another person. Being the one who got ignored, yeah it was hurtful but then come to think about it, who hasn’t done it? I mean, we don’t really mean to end that it; maybe we really got to leave but then some other thing got us hang around.

There are truths in the world that are better not known. Sometimes, to lie is better so that they won’t hurt.

Most people prefer to disregard the truth as the truth is more uncomfortable than the lie.

Yes, the truth is uncomfortable. But if we don't embrace that discomfort, then we must live the rest of our lives believing what's fake to be real. So even uncomfortable truths must be embraced. What you see is not everything.

- I HEAR YOUR VOICE END - 

All the best people are insane.

Friendship sometimes requires understanding, loyalty, jealousy and wasting time.

Annyeong~! It’s been quite a while since my last update. I was ‘busy’ lately. Mianhae bloggy-ah. So here they are, the Kelings! I haven’t write about them yet even we’ve been close for quite a while. They are awesome people who I met during my two semesters here in UiTM Puncak Alam.

 

Nadia Syamin bt Samsudin.

She’s the closest one to me. I don’t really know what to write about her but I know that she’s the crazy. We have a lot of in common actually; we often slept in class, we came late to class and we eat a lot HAHA. Thank you for making my life here more cheerful, thank you for still being here for me, thank you for being such a great friend even I often make you mad >.< You've taught me a lot especially on appreciating and understanding people better. And most importantly, thank you for being my life savior here. Sorry for all those mistakes and I hope our ties can never be broken.

 

Anis Syafiqa bt Rosman.
 

Well, I don’t really remember how we know each other but out of sudden, we became great friend. Thou I remember how hard you try to show how handsome celip is to us during sem 1 HAHA yes you can take him. For my beloved friend, I’ll back off so you can have celip. Thank you for the awesome things you’ve done even I could be really annoying; thank you for not hating me and never forget me!

Azila bt Mostafa.

Jijiel~! The most sporting person I have ever met. Thank you for cheering us all. I never really like taking pictures but since I met you, well, you know what’s happening now HAHA. She’s the first person to force me on taking picture with her; when I was having an eye illness  =_= .  Thank you for being a teacher to us and thank you for giving such a wonderful memory ^^

Syed Muhammad Aiman bin Syed Mohd Hakhiri.

The fanboy who approached me first; calling me Infinite HAHA. I never thought we’d be this close. Thank you for listening to my kpop stories and being the only one who understand me (about kpop) here. It’s awesome to have someone who we can be crazy over kpop with. You're a great friend, so never let others bring you down, arasso? And you’re the most insane Keling ever!  HAHA thank you for cheering our days. 그냥, 너무 너무 감사합니다~

Adam bin Mohd Bakri.

Adae. I don’t really know you much but still, thank you. Sorry for hijacking your phone a lot and I know your password~ HAHA. It was fun being able to know you and go crazy with all the Kelings. Sorry for making you chase me; it was quite embarrassing actually. All in all, just a simple thank you for every memories.

 

One Shot.

1. Put your music library on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question,

no matter how silly it sounds!

Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.

4. Ok, go!

5. When you're done, tag 20 people in this note, -

and make sure to tag the person who sent you this.

The answer to #20 is the Title of your note.

1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say
60 SECONDS (SUNGGYU INFINITE)

2. How would you describe yourself?
MY LOVE (LEE SEUNGCHUL)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
SHADOW (BEAST)

4. How do you feel today?
TOUCH (MISS A)

5. What is your life’s purpose?
INTO THE NEW WORLD (SNSD)

6. What's your motto?
FEMALE PRESIDENT (GIRL’S DAY)

7. What do your friends think of you?
CLOSER (TAEYEON SNSD)

8. What do you think of your parents?
LOVED YOU (SEO IN GUK ft ZIA)

9. What do you think about very often?
MOM (INFINITE)

10. What is 2 + 2?
NO NO NO (APINK)

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?
I’M GOING TO YOU (INFINITE)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
BE MINE (INFINITE)

13. What is your life story?
STUPID IN LOVE (MAD CLOWN ft SOYOU SISTAR)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
SOMEONE ELSE (JYP ft GAIN BEG)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
MA BOY (SISTAR19)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
ROSE (LEE HAYI)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
THIS SONG FOR YOU (L INFINITE)

18. What is your biggest fear?
CRASH (BAP)

19. What is your biggest secret?
DREAMING (KIM SO HYUN)

20. What will you post this as?
ONE SHOT (BAP)

I've done this tho but somehow I want to do it again.

It's quite fun in since I was a bit stress over studying.

Just a piece of mind.

"Additional Mathematics isn't about solving an equation but finding the simplest way to solve it"

- Ahmad Mustafa Azaman